Here I am back to my usual self .. Rambling about things that go on in my head...... But today's ramble is a new thing that I experienced on a personal and spiritual level on my trip to Shirdi........
Me of all people went to Shirdi on 06th April 2009.. hehe My mom had an astonished look on her face when i told two days before my trip that i was heading to shirdi .. There are reasons for the same.. one being the fact that i would be the last person to visit a religious place of my own and she was so happy about it that she ended up calling my pops to break out the news once i got out of the house... She said she just wanted to share the breaking news with someone..hehe That's my mom for you ..... Now let me tell you the real reason behind the trip... One of my friends from Delhi, I call her meaaws was coming to Shirdi along with her family.... she said the reason she was coming was she wanted to meet me and me being shameless and not coming to Delhi, she was going to be the one to travel the part of the journey ... and I didn't want to miss this chance of meeting this wonderful soul I have known for the past one year . If I didn't make this one I would set a new record for being shameless and also I would haunted with this opportunity lost to meet my maula..... all my life.. second reason for this trip was of course Sai baba.. to whom i had thank for the job I had and whose blessings i needed and also to put across a few things in front of him... As they say If you don't ask you don't get it... do you .. So i just asked.... The two days spent in Shirdi along with meaaws and her family was truly a blissful and divine experience on spiritual and personal level.. The spiritual level of course the grace of Sai Baba and the personal one was what i call it the andy experience... I landed in Shirdi called her up .. She came to receive me outside.. and mumma she is as i thought she would be... wild hair and the most beautiful dark round eyes i ever seen .... A hand shake and thats how things started rolling... A friend of mine had come along with me. A few things I liked about this meet ... The thing that she introduced me to her family .. which i don't do much with my friends means that she trusts me.. That was a good feeling for me. Then The way she made my friend comfortable.. eased half of my worry . I was like wondering whether he would get bored or anything.. Then I ended up talking less... Well i was talking when I was just with her.. But i was silent when in group .. This problem i have had before as i take time to mingle with people when in groups.. This has to be changed is what i feel. Anyways... then i was just listening to her and I was lost in her eyes... for most of my time.... We were up till 04:00 a about different things ... I was quiet most of the time but i did say things that made impact at the right time.. I was silent as I was listening and I was silent when she was right about the things and I was looking at her eyes... I could see two moons in the darkness we were in and all I do was look at it hear it and think about it.... Then The next day turned out to be a bit hard on meaaws , actually i feel partly responsible for it.. as her health went down .. and this wouldn't have happened if i had made the trip to delhi ..... I know i am a shameless one in that respect ... Another person i would like to talk about is this guy who had come along with the. Seriously sweet chap, genuine, honest and caring.. It was good thing that he was with them .. It is a safe feeling to have him around....
By the time I had to leave I got so silent that I don't know what to say about it... It always happens to me when good times come to an end. ... She was sick so i didn't trouble her much by talking anyways i don't talk much ... and then this sadness about going back always creeps in my mind and it makes me silent. ...
This trip has been a memorable one for me on all counts, be it with touching sai baba's feet to touching her feet , well i had to cause she is who made this meeting possible... her coming all the way from delhi right before her exams.. so she truly absolutely deserved that and also giving me a bowl full of the andy experience which made me wish that journey be diverted and somehow our destinations be same.... as with me i have been looking at life and life showed me exactly what i am looking for.. This is not a phase if it is , it is a permanent phase and not a transition or substitute thing that i am looking for.. .. This is not a fever ... If it is... it is a life long fever........This is madness that i agree this is madness over a woman who has many shades to her soul .. and each one beautiful in their own way ... and each one making me go gaga about it.... and its like life calling me yelling at me .... You didn't know till now what you wanted from life ... You were lost till now ... Here is your chance .........To have the best I( have to offer you ...... And i silently pray in my mind.... Show me the path to win this one..... this divine experience for life ..........
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