The Fight With in ...

I know its been long since i have rambled something here.. It was just that felt like a song like i have known this soul who goes by the name Anindita Tagore............ She is well there is nothing to describe her.. I know it is weird and I am going the same path .. I know its a risk.... but she is worth the risk ... She is worth the any risk in this world i can take.... When she talks all i can do is listen and say nothing which i guess bores her. I wonder what it is .. Is it sane to go gaga over some one.. Some one who i haven't met yet .. But that is gonna change soon :) .. When i think of that it brings a smile on my face.. And she is right when she says that I am shameless not to go to Delhi to meet her ... I should be the one taking the step ahead.... Shame on me.. It has been haunting me for a while... This b'day like my last b'day was spent working in V2 solutions. But when i reached home .. mumma I had the best gift i ever got in my life nice wrapped up ... It took me 15 - 20 minutes to undo the wrapping.. A customized beer mug and a card.... To add to it the look on my mom's face... truly priceless .. thing money can't buy ......... The umpteen names i got from her each one special in its own way .... Then she became the reason for my passion creativity , flow and inspiration for the new one i wrote on her.. Then I have given myself some miserable moments with her due to my moronic comments.. I felt so low during her anger of silence..Those 3 days were like lessons which would never be forgotten ... the saying holds very true as you sow so shall you reap ....

I have never ever come across anything like her all my life. It is stage where one thing occupies you every thought or action ... thats whats she has become my Zahir..... Someone one can't live without... but one whose destiny can't be controlled by me as well :) That is what is bothering me the most.. can or should anybody be so dependent on anyone in life... I know i am already very much into it... and I don''t want to get out of it never .. This is the fight in with in the firt between the mind and the heart ... The only things in my favour is I am passionate about her and It is her miss Anindita Tagore.