The Divine Experience..... Sheer bliss :) (09th April 2009)

Here I am back to my usual self .. Rambling about things that go on in my head...... But today's ramble is a new thing that I experienced on a personal and spiritual level on my trip to Shirdi........
Me of all people went to Shirdi on 06th April 2009.. hehe My mom had an astonished look on her face when i told two days before my trip that i was heading to shirdi .. There are reasons for the same.. one being the fact that i would be the last person to visit a religious place of my own and she was so happy about it that she ended up calling my pops to break out the news once i got out of the house... She said she just wanted to share the breaking news with someone..hehe That's my mom for you ..... Now let me tell you the real reason behind the trip... One of my friends from Delhi, I call her meaaws was coming to Shirdi along with her family.... she said the reason she was coming was she wanted to meet me and me being shameless and not coming to Delhi, she was going to be the one to travel the part of the journey ... and I didn't want to miss this chance of meeting this wonderful soul I have known for the past one year . If I didn't make this one I would set a new record for being shameless and also I would haunted with this opportunity lost to meet my maula..... all my life.. second reason for this trip was of course Sai baba.. to whom i had thank for the job I had and whose blessings i needed and also to put across a few things in front of him... As they say If you don't ask you don't get it... do you .. So i just asked.... The two days spent in Shirdi along with meaaws and her family was truly a blissful and divine experience on spiritual and personal level.. The spiritual level of course the grace of Sai Baba and the personal one was what i call it the andy experience... I landed in Shirdi called her up .. She came to receive me outside.. and mumma she is as i thought she would be... wild hair and the most beautiful dark round eyes i ever seen .... A hand shake and thats how things started rolling... A friend of mine had come along with me. A few things I liked about this meet ... The thing that she introduced me to her family .. which i don't do much with my friends means that she trusts me.. That was a good feeling for me. Then The way she made my friend comfortable.. eased half of my worry . I was like wondering whether he would get bored or anything.. Then I ended up talking less... Well i was talking when I was just with her.. But i was silent when in group .. This problem i have had before as i take time to mingle with people when in groups.. This has to be changed is what i feel. Anyways... then i was just listening to her and I was lost in her eyes... for most of my time.... We were up till 04:00 a about different things ... I was quiet most of the time but i did say things that made impact at the right time.. I was silent as I was listening and I was silent when she was right about the things and I was looking at her eyes... I could see two moons in the darkness we were in and all I do was look at it hear it and think about it.... Then The next day turned out to be a bit hard on meaaws , actually i feel partly responsible for it.. as her health went down .. and this wouldn't have happened if i had made the trip to delhi ..... I know i am a shameless one in that respect ... Another person i would like to talk about is this guy who had come along with the. Seriously sweet chap, genuine, honest and caring.. It was good thing that he was with them .. It is a safe feeling to have him around....
By the time I had to leave I got so silent that I don't know what to say about it... It always happens to me when good times come to an end. ... She was sick so i didn't trouble her much by talking anyways i don't talk much ... and then this sadness about going back always creeps in my mind and it makes me silent. ...
This trip has been a memorable one for me on all counts, be it with touching sai baba's feet to touching her feet , well i had to cause she is who made this meeting possible... her coming all the way from delhi right before her exams.. so she truly absolutely deserved that and also giving me a bowl full of the andy experience which made me wish that journey be diverted and somehow our destinations be same.... as with me i have been looking at life and life showed me exactly what i am looking for.. This is not a phase if it is , it is a permanent phase and not a transition or substitute thing that i am looking for.. .. This is not a fever ... If it is... it is a life long fever........This is madness that i agree this is madness over a woman who has many shades to her soul .. and each one beautiful in their own way ... and each one making me go gaga about it.... and its like life calling me yelling at me .... You didn't know till now what you wanted from life ... You were lost till now ... Here is your chance .........To have the best I( have to offer you ...... And i silently pray in my mind.... Show me the path to win this one..... this divine experience for life ..........

The Fight With in ...

I know its been long since i have rambled something here.. It was just that felt like a song like i have known this soul who goes by the name Anindita Tagore............ She is well there is nothing to describe her.. I know it is weird and I am going the same path .. I know its a risk.... but she is worth the risk ... She is worth the any risk in this world i can take.... When she talks all i can do is listen and say nothing which i guess bores her. I wonder what it is .. Is it sane to go gaga over some one.. Some one who i haven't met yet .. But that is gonna change soon :) .. When i think of that it brings a smile on my face.. And she is right when she says that I am shameless not to go to Delhi to meet her ... I should be the one taking the step ahead.... Shame on me.. It has been haunting me for a while... This b'day like my last b'day was spent working in V2 solutions. But when i reached home .. mumma I had the best gift i ever got in my life nice wrapped up ... It took me 15 - 20 minutes to undo the wrapping.. A customized beer mug and a card.... To add to it the look on my mom's face... truly priceless .. thing money can't buy ......... The umpteen names i got from her each one special in its own way .... Then she became the reason for my passion creativity , flow and inspiration for the new one i wrote on her.. Then I have given myself some miserable moments with her due to my moronic comments.. I felt so low during her anger of silence..Those 3 days were like lessons which would never be forgotten ... the saying holds very true as you sow so shall you reap ....

I have never ever come across anything like her all my life. It is stage where one thing occupies you every thought or action ... thats whats she has become my Zahir..... Someone one can't live without... but one whose destiny can't be controlled by me as well :) That is what is bothering me the most.. can or should anybody be so dependent on anyone in life... I know i am already very much into it... and I don''t want to get out of it never .. This is the fight in with in the firt between the mind and the heart ... The only things in my favour is I am passionate about her and It is her miss Anindita Tagore.

Random Ramble (01/22/2009)

What a day yesterday turned out to be .... Kicked off on a nice note. I am writing this on 22nd since the day doesn't end for me till my late night conversation with Andy.

It was a weird day, as in at work the number of records were less in number on two days trot. That has seldom happened. But this is a project where anything can happen. One day it would be a mere 30 and other days like i have been through there have been 175 records and i have worked till 06:00 am . Those were some days.

The matches got canceled because of our CEO's wedding anniversary celebrations. Then we had a meeting regarding punctuality issues with respect to meeting. Picnic plans were discussed as well. Most probably we did end up enjoying sun sand and sea breeze at Kashid Beach. Sea Breeze .. hehe thats one thing the so called supreme city is devoid of :).

After work we ( which includes Sumit, Ganesh and Abhijit) head to sweetmeat shop in Nerul namely Ujala , for its sumptuous Samosas. Then I have a session with Sumit discuss the office developments and wind off towards home.

Life begins at 11:00 - 11:30 pm .... Maybe they will come out as a book or poetic disaster titled Conversations with Andy ... Well , this is what makes my day a fabulous one.. The conversations with andy. She does what she likes talk and I listen learn and experience nd, Jhingaism and whatever other name i could give to it. I feel good, sleep good and wake up good after talking to her. The wshipering mode conversation adds to the bling as well and this makes me say she is the sweetest thing.. :)
Well I guess i need tp penn these down immeidately after the conversation which actually marks the endo my day , so things are fresh and thoughs can be penned down freely. Boka as I am called finds it dificult to write when the flow is not there.. That all or now sigining off.. tada

Slumdog Millionaire Song (21Jan 2009)

I am kicking of this blog with this post. The reason why I felt I need this blog is to have a place where i can pen down my daily ramble. This is also inspired by one miss Andy. For me life is greatest lesson to be learned and people are it's greatest teachers. I have been acquainted with this one for the past few months and it has been hell of a roller coaster ride.

Let's get the focus back to the main topic. I downloaded the Slumdog soundtrack and it has been truly a fascinating experience listening to the songs. The songs that i liked are O Saaya, Ringa Ringa and Lathika's theme.

O saaya has this great rhythms in the song. Thepercussion arragements for this song is truly fabulous and gives a liveliness to the song. Life is about beats and thats what this song is about, rhythm patterns changing like the pace of life.

Ringa Ringa uses the rhythm from hit song of the 90's Choli ke peeche of the movie Khalnayak. The song has raunchy lyrcis , vocals and style. All of this attributes to its refreshing sound. This old wine in a newly packaged bottle is a treat to the ears.

The last but not the least Lathika's theme, went almost unnoticed by me. Thanks to Andy, i listened to this song. The tune is impeccable and haunting and makes you wanna play in loop. This is what I have been doing ever since I started listening to this one. I have Slept over i waken to it. With minimal rhytms, great tune and no lyrics this instrumental piece never gets boring. As Andy said its inspiring and makes one wanna write.

Look what i Just did. I wrote a Blog after 4 month's hiatus :) .